… this “day” with Greene’s going-away Episode. I had it’s moments, but it didn’t quite move me to tears.
Yesterday¹ I was nearly weeping, but for completely different reasons.

I’m at a crossroad, not your garden-variety “fork in the road” … I got some serious thinking and deciding to do, and I gotta do it fast. There’s been very few moments when I felt this … need with such immediacy. There’s just sooo many things I have to weigh and consider and balance and compare. It hurts … in my head.

My bloody back hurts like hell. My stomach does too, with everything cold, warm, carbonated I consume. That’s quite unsettling, but it also figures into the whole crossroad thingy.

I’ve been extremely honest these last two, maybe three days. I usually try to tone it down some, cuz I know that too much honesty breaks things. I’m not sure how much actually reached the recipients. Well … I only really talked serious with 3 people in that time. One’s far off and being stupid² the next one is rather close and I fear not susceptible to my input³ and the third … has far more immediate issues to deal with, currently⁴.
I’m not even sure what exactly I want from life at the moment. I know I miss some input by people who I miss. But again … I’m not sure, even these people could … set me straight.

I hate the thought of having to go to work in a few days. I honestly hate that company by now. I simply can’t understand how a society can get to the point where such crap is simply tolerated. But obviously it is. And since the nail sticking out is the first to e hammered down, I’d either prepare for some serious headaches or … ignore my principles.

I’m faced with a situation, I do not know how to deal with. Sure I got ideas on how that’d be possible, but … I got no decisions. Well … I got one, and I’ll tell you when I next get a chance for some … serious conversation.

I should have been sleeping hours ago. But my mind is running in circles. But soon I’ll sleep!

Good night all and take care, okay?