Tonight I started season 3 of Bab5. I especially like this Season, cuz introduces my all-time-favorite character almost immediately. But more about him later. I especially like the fact, that this season is rather packed with action. Most episodes are filled with more than one story-arc, or event. It’s fast-paced, and one really gets into the spirit of things.

This season has a reappearance of another character I like: Mr. Morden, played by Ed Wasser.
This character is the prototypical villain. Charming, charismatic, and pure evil.
I seriously like his looks, and his smile. Where I female … or gay … *winks*
I really like the way he subtly influences people, and remains hidden in plain sight. Yeah sure, he’s evils henchman, which sort of makes it impossible to really like him, but then again … one must give kudos to his mode of operation.

And then … there is Marcus, played by Jason Carter.
He’s like my all-time superhero. He combines just about anything a person could wish for. Sure he has his flaws, but isn’t that, what makes us human? Ultimately, given the chance, I see myself going in the same fashion as he. And then there’s his accent. I positively love it. There’s just enough British accent in there to make me drool. Gah! I love that accent.
Yeah, I know what he’ll be achieving and doing in the remainder of the series, which of course makes me even more sympathetic to him, but just his initial appearance is … astounding.

EVE is currently shaping up rather well. Skill training is going right along. The Corp is working fine and becoming a well-oiled machine. It’s fascinating what only three people can do with 6 characters. We’re pulling in that cash like there ain’t no tomorrow. But then … we have goals we want to achieve, and working towards them needs cash. We managed some of the implants today, and are quite close to the first (replacement) hulk. After that the income is just gonna increase. Then two, maybe three more hulks, then the rorqual. Then we’ll see.

May day was a washout. I got nearly nothing done, which is especially frustrating seeing that I only had like three items on my agenda.

Our talk was extremely nice, even though I’m undecided about some of the stuff we talked about. Did the coins honestly turn up that way? I have a few more thoughts on the issue, but I won’t commit them to this blog.
Some things I was told by more than one person are … rather positive. But I don’t really know if they where meant to cheer me up, or if that’s truly the opinion of the people who told me those things. It’d be … sort of great, but also sort of frightening, if those things really where what they believed. I’m scared …

I’m seriously not really looking forward to the next weekend.
My next two weekends are basically shot. There’s a fucktonne of reasons why, but the most apparent reason is … something I can’t change (and I don’t really have a desire to change). Along with that a plan I had … thought about for some time is also shot, and I realize that it’s gonna be a rather long time, until I can possibly go through with it. Right now I’m very unsure if the plan is a good idea in the first place. I know it carries a great deal of danger, which is one of the reasons why I have not … seriously … considered it for some time now. I simply do not know if it where a wise thing.

My body is – once again – not working quite as it should. My heart rate is rather elevated, my blood pressure is above where it should be for someone my age. Some other aspects – of which I’ll spare you the details – are not working properly. Maybe I should consult a doc, but then … I know what she’d say. And I’m not ready to do what I’d gonna be told. I detest that fact, but right now there’s very little I can do about it, unfortunately.
I want my life back … the way it was when I turned 20. Some very good things won’t (have) happen(ed), but I guess I could deal with that. My outlook on life was much better then, and I would so much love for that outlook to return. But what’s done is done, unfortunately. I can only work towards a better future, within the realm in which I have any influence. But I fear that realm is not large enough to effect any serious changes on my life. That’s a sad realization.

Ah, well … time for one more episode, then bed.