Unfortunates
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Some things in life are simply unfortunate. In my case the problem is that I came pre-packaged with an extremely active brain. I guess there’s not really much I can do about this currently. 
I simply can’t help seeing most of the things I do. Yes, I guess I am guilty of sometimes seeking out information I’d not necessarily come across by chance, but mostly … I just see it, basically “by accident”. And what I see … forms certain patterns. Patterns which unfortunately I think contradict other behavior.
I guess it’s pretty bloody obvious that I have lost contact. It hurts, a lot. I miss your presence in my life, I seriously do. But I guess, the two of us have very incompatible definitions of friendship, and what it takes to uphold one. This too is unfortunate. But I don’t think there is anything that I can do about this, currently. I guess I’ll just have to rely on the knowledge that you know how to contact me, if you so chose.
I guess, this is one of the most pathetic posts I ever made. I have no idea what results it will produce, but I know it can quite well harm me rather badly. I know I’d get an earfull by a two-digit number of people if and when they learn(ed) about this post, but I have to write it.
I’m gonna head off to bed now, and … hopefully not dream.
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Well… What can I say really…
I too find it unfortunate that we have lost contact, but I believe that this wasn’t entirely my fault. Anyways… Read and you might understand or you might not…
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I’m quite sick of talking bout all the things I said or did which (apparently) are contradictory and I also am sick of defendin myself, so I guess I better not comment on this part (but I didn’t want to just skip this part either).
I don’t think we have incompatible definitions of friendship, but -as you SHOULD know- I am incredibly busy right now and I will be till my final exams are over. Just in case you wanna know: No, I’m NOT spending hours on the phone talking to someone else and I won’t see Basti for about a month either. Don’t think that’s easy for me to do, but -to use your own words- I don’t think there is anything that I can do about this, currently.
So I guess that’s it for now…
I wish you a nice evening and a very good night.
I didn’t insinuate any of those things.
Yes I know that, but it simply is impossible to NOT have a few *minutes* in the span of two weeks for someone one calls a friend. That’s plain impossible.
I have no idea how I am supposed to understand this comment, what did you want to tell me????
I’m sitting here, available, and yet it appears it’s still too much to simply talk to me. What’s the message in that? What is it , you want to tell me?
You want me to stay away from that blog, so thats what I will do. Any further explanations will be useless anyway.
So I will end this with something someone once said to me:
“Bye, have a nice life.”
Not quite what I said, but okay…