At this Moment, there are about four really big things going on in my life. All of them have pros and cons. Some more pros, others more cons. But the major point is: None of them have no cons. I guess it’s kinda childish to wish for something that has no con, but still. I don’t think it’s unreasonable to hope for something thats only positive, every

I’ve been seeing a certain facial expression a lot on BSG, which I know quite intimately, without having seen it (on myself). It comes from when you taste something which should be too much for you.

I have quite a desire to destroy something right now … like break … anything.

Why do my worst predictions have to keep coming true? I won’t budge from my decision, but I’ll hate myself for it.

Then again that’s not such a distant feeling … Been feeling it more often that I’d like lately. Should I start getting (re-)acquainted with it, more intensely?

Ich hasse so ziemlich alles, was heute in meinem Privatleben passiert ist. Der Beruf war nicht deutlich besser.

Ich gehe davon aus, das der Tag weitreichende Konsequenzen haben wird. Die, die ich mir ausmalen kann, hasse

I am bloody scared right now. I am not exactly sure I have a reason, just a number of possible hints. I hate this. I don’t want to feel this way, and I bloody well don’t want any hints

Words are a difficult thing. They can convey information or hide it or distort it. And it’s never quite

… just made one of the stupidest decisions I’ve ever made in my life. It wasn’t a mistake, but it was stupid.